who am i......

I am suzie..... but who is she?

I hardly remember the girl who became a mother almost 5 years ago.

who was she?

what did she like?

what was she like?

I have lost her in the life that i call motherhood.

But i am more then a mother.

Motherhood does not define me.

It is part of me.

I am trying to find that girl again..... 

because i liked her.

This is me. 

all of me. 

the extra 20 pounds and all.

i am a lover of words.

when i was growing up i read constantly.

the book world was a lot more exciting then high school.

i can be sarcastic and loud.

i believe in being kind to everyone.

i can be shy

and that makes it hard for me to put myself out there.

i love the color yellow.

it is the color of sunshine and flowers.

there is something about that color that brings a smile to my face.

i love my family.

and truthfully i love being a mother.

there are days when i look at my children and i want them to stay little forever.

i may not love the cleaning and the messes but i love being their mother.

that makes me special.

only i can be their mother.

i am a firm believer that there is beauty in our lives

the only problem is seeing it through the screaming and yelling.

I love nature.

i enjoy being outside and my favorite thing to do is go hiking.

i am a runner.

and no i am not good at it.

i run for me.

running is something that i do just for me that fills me up

so then i can continue to give to my family.

i have learned that by being a mother we give give and give.....

but giving when we are empty doesn't really work.

i am not gorgeous. 

people don't look at me and think "wow! That girl is so gorgeous!"

and that is okay.

I know i am beautiful.

My Father in Heaven has told me and that is all that matters.

I am starting to love me for me

and the more i love myself for who i am the more I am able to love others.

all you moms out there who have lost yourselves, find out who you are.

Embrace who you are and LOVE IT!

It helps me to write it down and I would love to here what you have to say about who you are!

I am so grateful for all the comments and feedback i get. 

Motherhood is hard but we don't have to do it alone!