please tell me i am not the only one whose:
1.house is always a mess
2.floor is never mopped
3.bathroom is cleaned maybe once a month if lucky
4.laundry done but rarely put away and sitting in a basket by the door for a week.
5.dishes only done because i need that dish
6.kids eat dinner in front of the tv a couple days a week because the table has clothes or junk all over it and i am too lazy to clean it off.
7.make a meal plan but never stick to it because something else sounded good that day or just too lazy to make what i planned.
8. feel overwhelmed by all that i need to get done
i can't be the only one who feels this way.
there are some days when i feel so weighed down by my responsibilities that i don't want to get out of bed. i remember one night praying for help and a thought came to me..... what is most important? what are the most important things that should do during the day?
-pray {personal and family}
-read scriptures {individual and family}
i felt that if i did these thing during the day the rest of what i need to do will be not so overwhelming. i know this is true..... do i do this? lets just say i am a work in progress. just because i know what i need to do does not make it easy to do it. but everyday i wake up with a goal that i am going to get the important things done today if nothing else.... and most days that is what happens. but even though i did not clean my house and my clothes are all over the floor i feel happy.
Heavenly Father answers prayers and i know that i am not in this alone.... i only need to ask Him for help. Heavenly Father would not leave those wonderful spirits that i call my children to me, a sometimes immature spastic woman, without giving me help. that is comforting to know. Now i only need to ask for help more often.
In my dream world my house is always clean, the floors always mopped, the bathroom spotless and clothes always put away. Dinner is always made and delicious and we always eat at the table. in my dream house i am perfectly organized and calm. this is not real life. i will never have a perfectly clean house, or a perfectly organized house and once i stop beating myself up about it then i can enjoy my life the way it is........ perfectly messy!
You definitely aren't alone!
ReplyDeleteSuzie,
ReplyDeleteI have enjoyed reading your thoughts. I remember those feelings. Now I am older and wish I could go back. One thing that you should never feel guilty about is spending time with your children. All of these others things are just that things,you will always have laundry, floors to mop, bathrooms to clean those things never go away. But those precious little people will only be little once. So remember to spend time with them, play with them, love them. That is what they will remember.Heavenly Father is wise in his placement of his choice little spirits, they are where they should be. We all are works in progress, thank goodness we don't have to be perfect!!Keep writing. Liesa Domeny
You should have seen my house for the last 2 weeks! I FINALLY got it cleaned up yesterday. I think we all have those times throughout the month. It's nice when you can get it clean and "find yourself" but it's really not about us is it? It's about those little babies. You are doing great!
ReplyDeleteJust come by my house unannounced sometime and you'll realize you are not alone! It's really really hard to keep up on housework with little kids. I'm convinced I could be constantly cleaning and there'd still be something that needed done. I think that those Moscow apartments are especially hard to keep clean. They're so small and such an awkward layout, and really who keeps up on dishes without a dishwasher? Nobody.
ReplyDeleteSuzie,
ReplyDeleteTake up drinking, that's what got me through. Jk
I admire your raw honesty. Now I'll be honest with you.The hardest time of my life was when my kids were little. I Can honestly say I don't miss that time. I miss my babies. I don't miss the fatigue, never ending house work and the guilt of not enjoying it. You can still love your babies and be a good mom and not be crazy about this phase of life. One day at a time. All moms are different, some are awesome at babies, some are great with teenagers, others rock the adult ages. The most important is they know you love them. And you do, so your golden. Let yourself be and know its ok to struggle.
Love you ,and adore your openness!
Ally
You are most DEFINITELY not alone!! As I read it - I can read my life in your words. Almost identical! A hubby in school, busy, not home very much. It's hard. It's really hard to be alone all day and be so exhausted at the end of it. And to feel like the house is always messy. It's so hard but there are those tiny moments that make it all worth it. Lots of hugs to you...we can do this...we can do HARD things! xoxo
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