is to be happy.
that is all i want.
i want to be happy with this life i have chosen.
i want to feel at peace with my decision and not waver.
i feel satan taking over somedays.
he can be very convicing.
the world tells us that being a mother and wanting children is weak and not worth much.
that you should be anything but a mother if you want to be some one in this world,
but i am a woman..... i am a Daughter of God
and it is my nature to want to be a mother.
it is who heavenly father made me to be.
but sometimes satan can make me forget that.
he tells me that there is no glory in being a home maker.
that cooking and cleaning and teaching are way over rated.
oh how i just want to be happy.
Satan knows he will never make me leave my children or my family
but he knows he can make me bitter and resentful and that is worse.
i don't want my children to grow up with a mother who is resentful.
a mother who isn't happy just being with them and loving them.
i will fight this....
i will be happy.
I'm sorry that you're having a hard time. You're an amazing mom to be giving all of your time to your kids. I like to remember that right now I'm a full-time mom of toddlers (and it is wonderful but all-consuming), but I won't always be. They'll grow up and life will change and I'll have time to fulfill those other dreams that I don't have time or energy for right now. Hang in there! Love you!
ReplyDeleteI feel you Suz. Fight it. Tooth and Nail. You can do it. Some days you might not be stronger than him alone. But with the Savior, you can be. Fight hard, cause sometimes, that's all we can do.
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