{sunshine}

there are times when the clouds of selfishness and doubt part and i see the way this life is supposed to be.
when my head clears and i really understand what life is meant for.
the selfishness and worldliness is really like a fog that clouds my mind and makes me doubt what i am doing and why i am doing it.
but there are times when everything is clear and i know.
i know that being a mom is the most important thing i will ever do on this earth.
i know that it is all worth it.
i know that my children are amazing and wonderful
i know i am blessed to be the mother of my kids
i know that the amazing feeling i get sometimes when i look at my children is from my Heavenly Father
i know that it is his way of telling me that i am doing the right thing and that he is proud of me
i know that i am a wonderful person and that people do love me.
i know that i can do hard things
i take these moments of clarity and i hold on to them because i know that the doubt and my own selfishness will come back. i hold on to these feelings as long as i can.
and when the fog comes back i rely on my faith in my testimony to part the clouds again.
i know that every time the fog clears, my testimony of these things will come back that much stronger.
i am grateful for my life.
i truly am.
i am blessed with so many things.
i am grateful to be me because i am pretty amazing and i even like myself sometimes.
i know that the simpler that i live my life the happier i am
and that all that matters in this life is my family and the gospel.

so i am going to take these good feelings and hold on them!

Love,
     me