why do i expect this life to be easy? it shouldn't be easy. i don't want to get to heaven and see that everyone else made it through hard trials and still overcame and the only reason i am there is because it was easy. but what is hard for me might be really easy for somebody else. it is amazing how every single one of us have our own trials and hard things. i have to remember that when i see someone else's beautifully cleaned house or an organized mother. we each have our own trials. life is hard. then you die..... just kidding. life is hard so we can become better, and so we can have blessings. it is something i have to keep reminding myself. i will not get blessings from doing easy things. so i should be grateful that it is hard to get out of bed in the morning, and i count it an accomplishment that i actually got out of bed. i should be grateful that it is hard for me to keep my house clean..... really hard. i wonder what kind of blessings i will get from that..... i should be grateful that it is hard for me to read my scriptures regularly. i keep expecting it to get easier the more i do it but no. it was easier before i had kids and i had lots of time on my hands and now sometimes it feels like something else to add to my to do list that i will fail at but i know it is so important and i will be so blessed.
the Lord really loves me so he made life hard......
now i have to remember this when i am crying because i am so tired and my kids are fighting and i feel like the worst mom in the world, that my kids would be so much better off with a different mother.....
the Lord really does love me so he gave me my own set of trials and hard times.
and i can do hard things.
i can be a young mother of young children
i can wake up in the morning
i can clean my house.... because that is a hard thing let me tell you. i clean one room and then turn around and it is a mess again!
i want to get to heaven and when my Heavenly Father and Savior look at me and ask me if i have any regrets and I want to be able say no. I want them to be proud of me because i overcame my "hard things"
my own set of hard things.
that is just my thoughts for today. i don't verbally share my testimony very often but i love to write it.
i know that my Savior loves me and that without Him i would truly be lost. My father in heaven loves me so much that he gave me hard things because he knows.... I can do hard things!
You know, I felt very much the same way when I was younger. I wanted things to be easy, but they weren't. We had way more struggles than I wanted. One day while we were at church we were singing "Come Come ye Saints" and these words really stood out to me. "Why should we think to earn a great reward if we now shun the fight?" It's like you said, we can't shun the fight if we want the reward, and it would be great to get to the other side and have no regrets.
ReplyDeletei love you suzie! You are so honest and open and I love that about you. Your post speaks to me, because I feel that way about not wanting to be here in Alaska, and getting better about reading my scriptures, much more spiritual in general, and becoming more accomplished in all things. I have to say I loved AJ's comment about shunning the fight... I do it every day. I want the reward too! I truly do! I guess I have to learn to embrace the fight so that there will be a great reward.
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