{motherhood}

Growing up it was never my plan to be mom. I knew I was going to be a mom someday and I wanted to but there was so much that I wanted to do before I was a mom. I was going to be an archeologist and discover something amazing! I was going to be a teacher and teach children who did not get to learn. I was going to be a nurse and take care of people in other countries.... I was going to be someone and I was going to do something amazing. After I got married my thinking changed, when I got pregnant with Jacob I knew that is what I was meant to be. I was born to be a mother. There is no other job or calling more amazing or blessed. I wake up every morning to my children and then I go to sleep after I see them sleeping in their beds. My day consists of dirty clothes, messy faces, unmade beds, and dirty dishes, lots of hugs, kisses and love. This is not how I saw my life but I am so glad that my Heavenly Father led me here. Being a mom is truly a blessing and I am grateful the Lord blessed me with these sweet amazing spirits. I do not have a degree like I planned, I have not gone to another country to save others, I have not even had a job outside my home for 4 years, but this is life that I needed and I love it. I am discovering new things every day, I am teaching my children what they need to return to our Father in Heaven and I nurse my children when they are sick. I love being a mom and would not do anything else. I have learned something, beautiful things come from heavenly father and they are meant to inspire not discourage, or make me depressed. I am still learning how to love me for me and the way I am, to be inspired by others. Satan tries to make me feel less then or not as good, but I am slowly learning to set that aside and just enjoy life and the beautiful things in it!